recovery

I am 33 years old now. It has been 6 years since I came to America as a refugee. I was banned from living in my country. Because of my race, I had to live without an identity card until the age of 7. Even though I was very young, I grew up with the bitterness that this country did not want me. I always had to be the best to be accepted by society. I was the best, but I was not accepted. I had to both study and work since the age of 12. Despite these difficulties, I graduated from very good schools with very good scholarships, but I was still not accepted. I had to run away to America. When I first came to America, I worked and studied, doing many jobs, including babysitting and house cleaning. I am trying to live a life alone, thousands of miles away from my family, deprived of their love. I was succeeding. I studied extention at UC Berkeley. Afterwards, I developed my career related to the department I studied. Everything was going well until the Covid epidemic hit the world. First, I lost my job, and then my economic problems started. While struggling with the economic problems, my psychological problems emerged. I am experiencing health problems that start with anxiety disorder, continue with panic attacks, and peak with agoraphobia. I am getting specialist support and trying to survive on 3 antidepressants. I want to hold on to life again and I believe that I will achieve this by returning to my job, but on the other hand, I am in a serious economic crisis, including financial anxiety, rent, and bills. That being the case, I'm having serious trouble focusing on my career. Unfortunately, I am far from my dreams. What I wanted was to continue my career and support young women like me who were in difficult times. However, now I am just a young woman who needs help and support just like them.

I need even the slightest support from valuable and sensitive people like you in order to get rid of these troubles that I am going through alone.

Thank you very much in advance.

I am grateful..