Help Life Get Back On Track

I am stepping out of the box into a world much bigger than I am. I am ignoring the familiar fears that accompany asking for help because it is those fears that keep everyone comfortable in their struggles. My heart is big and my eagerness to help others is always there, I have strong belief and faith in the multitude of human beings out there like me who know and still hold the concept that there is still good in humanity. In three years my children have lost their father, my stepchildren have lost their mother, have lost my god-father and aunt who were phenomenal individuals and both had a spirit about them that made them individuals who touched many far and wide and left impacts on people lives that will transcend a lifetime, and the most devastating loss of them all was that of my two-year-old nephew who right after his second birthday got ahold of some fentanyl over the Christmas holiday and overdosed and passed away. The ability to recover from such soul-taking blows has been debilitating and having fought every step of the way to regain some type of new norm in our lives we've hit a pit that is proving to be a bit bigger to get out of. This time of year will forever be rough because not only did we just celebrate what would have been my little guy's fourth birthday we are immediately taken a step backward because not even 60 days later are we faced with the day that he passed. However, right now we are facing hardship with an eviction that is in process, due to the loss of our jobs, and the inability to acquire some kind of financial assistance because our vehicle has been impounded and we have no means of transportation at all. We couldn't even gather enough to get a bus pass if we wanted to. I am on my last leg of hope and faith and it is on my spirit to do this even though I am not sure what will come from it. All I know is that I sit here pouring out my heart through tears and words in belief and confidence that the universe has not forgotten me and the goodness of life still has my name written in it. I am not asking for anything outside of the means of what it would take for us to be able to finally catch our breath and stop sleeping in fear. To once again be able to go about a day without being in the mental fear of whether today will be the day I become homeless, waking every day immediately having to be in a war state of mind because you are not sure if you will be able to sleep in your bed or preparing to figure out where you can go and even how you are going to get there. We are behind two months' rent totaling $3500 and my vehicle has been impounded since August and the amount to receive totals $2500. $8888 is the number I am asking the universe for so that I can once again be back on the playing field of life. $8888 because $6000 is for the rent and vehicle and my rent is $1900 and I know December is upon us, that comes to $7900. That leaves $988 and with that, I can take and pay the vendor fee that is needed to be able to be approved to operate my own business with the state so that I will never have to find myself in this position again. But I do know that once this comes through, I will forever be on the contributing side because there is nothing like having the fuel of "been there" being the driving force of the generosity that you give. All I can say if you have made it this far is Thank You...Thank You Thank You Thank You

Rest in Peace to the greatest little boy that ever lived #KshaunsUniverse4ever